Pain, Plain

Not physical but emotional pain, to see two people together, sharing their souls and learning to understand each other. Even so, just seeing someone you like, yet impossible to reach that person can cause emotional pain. Ever so often we get exposed to environment where we become left out, and soon enough, we get used to it. We get used to loneliness. It's not easy to find someone who thinks like you, and understands you. Maybe, it's all just of longing, of wish.

Sometimes, when you grow up a little older, a little wiser, you start to realise that what you thought it was suppose to be, was actually the opposite. It also takes a mature mind to keep changing the way one sees all this. To evaluate, analyse and to understand the situation, you need to be someone that is ready to take risk. Wrong evaluation, wrong analysis, and wrong understanding may lead to something far from what one has expected.

Life is just plain painfulness. What's more painful than feeling lost and off control in certain situation? Such situations where you can only stay aside and watch everything helplessly, simply because there is a lack of courage. With that, many opportunities just simply skip pass. Living my life with low self esteem and no courage, it's just plain painful.