Proven Loser

24% self-worth.
28% self esteem.
79% depression.
70/150 for emotional IQ test.

These tests may not be accurate but who cares.
I am low self esteem.
A truely sad and depressed person.
Nothing makes me happy.
Because my life is just stale.
Just like a stale bread.
Grey. Everything's grey.
Colours don't exist.
Not in my world.
Seriously, I hate myself.
I hate the mornings.
Waking up to get scolded.
I hate the nights.
Doing work to get scolded.
I hate the afternoons.
Too busy to eat and get scolded.
I hate my life.
And I will get scolded.
I AM FAKING MY LIFE.
EVERYTHING I DO IS TO PLEASE EVERYONE ELSE.
BUT ME.
I HAVE TO BE SUCCESSFUL.
I HAVE TO BE BETTER THAN OTHERS
I HAVE TO BE THIS, I HAVE TO BE THAT.
Begging to let me off.
Never.
Not unless I get casted into no man's island.
If I disappear from the surface of the earth, nobody would notice.
I AM SO NOT SURPRISE.